Look Forward To A New Beginning

Ah, I wish things would go back to normal! But what does normal mean to you? Is it the busy, frazzled, can't get all the things crossed out on my checklist kind of normal? Or the I'm-tired-of-doing-the-same-thing, again and again, kind of normal?

Before the lockdown, you maybe be one of those people wishing for a change. And here we are. Living in a different world compared to where it was before. Yes, an unwelcome change at that. Yet, we wish to go back to normal?

I used to work part-time as a Software Engineer before I lost my job. At the same time, I look after our toddler full-time.

Ah, kids! If you're a parent, you'll understand what it's like. There are times, lots of it, they'll get on your nerves. It is when they're fussy and unreasonable accompanied by annoying screams that could disturb an entire neighborhood.

He wants mommy. He wants mommy's attention. And he'll make sure to get all of it. You could just imagine the frustration when you're also trying to focus!

Look Forward To A New Beginning
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I like to work. It's liberating to have my own spending budget.

On the other hand, I don't want to spend money on Daycare. Multitasking proved to be a difficult mountain to tread. I can't do it all. Something has to give. My peace and joy were on the line. I wasn't able to manage the decision well.

At that time, I wished for change. "Ah, when will he turn into a kindergartener so I can do uninterrupted work! Or I wish he grows up fast!"

The husband contradicted, "Don't be like that. It's better to enjoy the stage he is in right now. Time will surely pass. You don't want to be one of those people hoping they'd spend more time with their children growing up."

Today, things are different. I no longer have to worry about juggling two tasks at once. Yet, here I am craving for normalcy to come back. Ironic, huh?

Why would anyone want to go back to the things they'd wish to get out of? Doesn't that make us a fussy, unreasonable, complaining adult? Why long for the past?

The Bible says It's not wise to look back on what has been.

Don’t long for “the good old days.”
This is not wise.
~ Ecclesiastes 7:10 NLT

Wouldn't it be better to use this season to reflect on the past? Like, consider the choices and decisions we've made from the bygone period, be wiser than yesterday, become the best version of ourselves, or make better choices moving forward.

Seasons come and go. Surely, this too shall pass. Right now, times are dark. It is a night season. The nighttime is for resting, relaxation, reflecting, and slowing down. At the same time, look forward to the brighter mornings of tomorrow.

Don't look back. It's not wise to do so. I believe God is doing a new thing. It will not be the same as before but better. My hope is anchored in His promises.

“Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth; Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness And rivers in the desert.
~ Isaiah 43:18-19 NKJV

I don't know how long it will take before we get there. But I sure am looking forward to a new beginning. To a better kind of normal. Will you?